Due to state-wide budget cuts in Education, I was laid-off at the end of June. I’m having mixed feelings about the whole thing. There is a small part of me that is upset, as the job itself seemed tailor-made to my strengths and talents. Another piece of me is anxious and nervous about what lies ahead. But mostly, I am trying to see it as a blessing. I am one of those people who believes everything happens for a reason. And in this case, I think it was time for me to move on to the next phase of my life. That job (and living in Visalia) was good for me when I needed to get back on my feet and learn how to take care of myself. Now, I’m ready to do something exciting. Ready to branch out of my comfort zone a little more.
One thing that is beneficial about my unemployment is the timing. Right when I decide to take matters of my health and body image into my own hands, I suddenly have the time available to devote myself to that goal. Now that I’m not working, I have no excuse not to exercise every day. I also can be more mindful about what I put in my body because I am not really ever rushing to get anywhere.
The plan for this month doesn’t really involve anything major, but I am hoping the results will be significant.
For the next 30 days, I will try to make most (if not all) of my meals at home. I will be mindful of what ingredients I use, mindful of how I eat my meals (chewing slowly, finishing when I’m full, etc) and I will exercise at least once a day. I also plan on writing everything down, just because the few times I did Weight Watchers, that always seemed to help.
And that’s it.
My therapist and I have talked about how my obsessive tendencies lead me to not be a good candidate for handling dieting well. She has suggested that if I ever truly want to kick my bad habits, I need to simply teach myself how to use food as nourishment only. Any and all food; not just whatever is deemed the healthy diet of the moment. They say doing something for 30 days can form a habit. So, for the next month, I will focus on eating mindfully at each meal and see what results that yields. And if that doesn’t work, we’ll try something else.
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Many of you have been sending me private notes of encouragement. Some of you have even shared your own food/body related issues with me. Please…keep sharing! It gives me the courage to continue telling my story, and it really helps to know I’m not the only one out there.